I awoke at 4:45, then again at 5:15, to my kids yelling for a drink. They are back in bed, and I am left with my coffee, Bible, laptop, guitar by my side, and my racing brain.
I planned to open my Bible to the passage we are studying in the kids program at church this week, but as my Bible flipped open it instead displayed a note card I scribbled on about two years ago. This happens a lot actually, and I really should write down when it happens.
Simply-put and God-breathed, it said 2 Corinthians 4:17-18: "For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
Take a step back. Well actually, let's gaze down on my life for a second. Married, two kids, business owner, blah blah blah. Yet, while my life has been moderately normal (if that even means anything), I have had my share of setbacks, failures, heartbreaks, and losses. Some of those setbacks broke me for the future. I've noticed the collapse of past friendships have given me this almost-intense fear of new friendships, that they'll simply move on as if I never existed. Sometimes it even affects my marriage; but I thank God for my husband's amazing communication and listening skills, and his ability to work through it with me.
The failures have also smacked me in the face a bit. Backing out of college soccer, never getting a REAL acting part in college (chorus member, LOL), yelling at my kids... you get the picture. We all have areas of our life or decisions we see as failures.
But its almost like when we fail, when sadness wells up inside us, when we fear the unknown, our gaze turns to the ground. Our life on earth becomes everything; it consumes us.
Yet, as heavy as our burdens become, how heavy is the glory of God that rests on the other side of the scale?
With all my worries, I fix my own eyes on what I can't yet see. Its really THAT simple.
